So this is my life and I want you to know that I am both happy and sad

Okay, so I SWEAR the drawing itself is much better.
I think.
I don't like the picture of it.
I think I like my Paulie better.

I fear that my generation is the end of The Beatles.

Two of my friends didn't know who John Lennon was.

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And one of my friends scoffed at me when I said he was more than just a Beatle.

What? Give peace a chance? Oh no, no. He's nothing more than some dead guy that used to be in some old band.

Ikindahatelife.

There are so many things running through my mind right now. I don't even know.

I wishwantneedlove, ect.

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So I just [as in, a few seconds ago] finished watching Notorious on the Biography channel. It was of John Lennon's death.

I sobbed.

I would have done anything to meet him, but I was born after he died.

My new goal in life is to go see the 'Strawberry Fields Forever' memorial.

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So I was looking up some John Lennon quotes, and I came upon this:

"I don't intend to be a performing flea any more. I was the dreamweaver, but although I'll be around I don't intend to be running at 20,000 miles an hour trying to prove myself. I don't want to die at 40."

I won't lie to you.
I cried.
I'm still crying.

And this one, too:

"Guilt for being rich, and guilt thinking that perhaps love and peace isn't enough and you have to go and get shot or something. "

Oh.

John Lennon.

You died before I was even born, and it saddens me.

If you could go back in time and put John and Paul in the right room on the right night with a few bottles of wine, thereby saving John's life, increasing the output of the greatest rock duo ever, and injecting a giant dose of tolerance into the world . . . would you?

I would.

Maybe.

I don't know.

What would the world be like if Brian Epstein never died and if Yoko and John never met? Would The Beatles still be together? I don't think so, but I think they would have at least made it to 75. I think the Disco era would maybe kill them.

But if The Beatles never broke up, or lasted longer than they did, would John have never had his huge solo activism career and pretty much create hippies? Would Mark David Chapmen still have set out to kill him, would he succeed? Or would he have not been known altogether?

My mind is hurting, and a wave of panic is about to wash over me with the thought of no hippies ever and The Beatles just slowly fading away.

Maybe things do happen for a reason.

I do wish John Lennon never died.