So this is my life and I want you to know that I am both happy and sad

I haven't seen every episode of Scrubs. And every time I watch an episode for the first time after I became in love with JDCox, it's totally diffrent.

Like, I've seen the episode when Dr. Cox is depressed and everyone tries to go to cheer him up.

Well, I watched it for the first time being a JDCox fan yesterday.

I died, I swear I did.

"I know you wanted me to, even though you'd never admit it"

The look on Dr.Cox's face when Carla says he's not comming.

"Maybe he just needed time to heal, or maybe he just needed to see how much everybody cared. But I'd like to believe that it was because of me that he was finally able to say this"

I tried to convince myself the reason I didn't come in before was because of you coming into work drunk. But that's not it. I was scared. I guess after all this time, I still think of you as like this super hero, who will help me out of any situation I'm in. I needed that. But that's my problem, you know? And I'll deal with that. I guess I came over here to tell you how proud of you I am. Not because you did the best you could for those patients, but because after 20 years of being a doctor, when things go badly, you still take it this hard. And I gotta tell you man, I mean, that's the kind of doctor I want to be."

And most of all,

"JD...thank you."

I must say, I was squeeling so much throughout this episode I thought I was going to loose my voice.



But, anywho way, Garden State shall be arriving around Thursday. Tomorrow my daddy's taking me to Wall-Mart before work so I can buy as many seasons of Scrubs as possible.

Than on Thursday, I'm either going to Warped Tour or having a very Scruby day.

:D